Listen to the whispers of your body before it needs to scream

Our bodies talk to us all the time through different signs; first, they whisper, but if we do not hear the whispers, eventually they’ll scream…

Before I developed my vulvodynia, I was living in a constant state of anxiety and my body kept telling me I was not safe and something needed to change. My work was extremely demanding physically and emotionally and I always felt on edge. But I kept telling myself I couldn’t quit because it was the only resource I had to pay for everything I needed to pay. However, in hindsight, I should’ve quit while I was ahead before my body had to scream at me to stop.

Once I developed vulvodynia, I couldn’t do what I was doing anymore.
I had to once and for all stop abusing my body.
I didn’t listen to my body when it was giving signals over and over again through anxiety and panic attacks and eventually, it gave me so much pain, that I had no choice but to listen to my screaming vagina and change my life radically.

After that, I embarked on a long journey of becoming more attuned to my body…
Listening to what it says and honoring it, as well as understanding my emotions on a deeper level.

This required a change in my identity; I couldn’t be the same Miriam and still suppress everything by shoving down my fears, anger, and grief down.

In order to heal, I had to face all of it. Everything needed to come out and I had to learn to put myself first.

If my body said something that didn’t resonate with us (mind, body, and spirit), we would listen, and even if it was difficult, we spoke up. If my body said something wasn’t sitting well, we learned to change our actions to act in alignment. If my body told me we had unprocessed emotions stored in our organs and muscles, we created space for it to come out. We allowed emotions that I generally suppressed, to come out and become alive.

I took actions that needed to be taken in order to promote my healing.

I left relationships, distanced from friendships, dropped out from my previous school, moved to my home country, changed my diet, learned to set boundaries… I was finally listening to every single thing my body needed to enable its healing. It was difficult, even at times traumatic. I had to make decisions I did not want to make, but I knew if I didn’t put myself first, I would not heal. So I did things that were very difficult for me at first because I just knew that’s what I needed and what would support my healing, even if that meant giving up on the life I had envisioned for myself. But by listening to every inch of my being I finally healed, and now I am grateful I made all of those decisions. Not only did I heal, but actually my whole life became better from it.

Listening to our needs can be difficult, first, we need to know WHAT our body is signaling us, and then we need to honor it, which will undoubtedly be uncomfortable, but it is so worth it to make ourselves a priority. It’s such an essential and fundamental part of the healing journey.

Our bodies don’t want to feel pain, we don’t want to feel pain, there isn’t a single bit in ourselves that wants to be in pain, but sometimes that alarm is all we have to tell ourselves we need to tend to our own needs.

You may already know what you need but have difficulties in taking action toward bettering yourself or you may be unaware of how much your internal state affects your external world & pain.

I am more than happy to guide you on your healing journey and help you connect to what your heart tells you, by finding the ways to give yourself what you need.

This will not be the only aspect we will be focusing on, but be a big missing piece toward fully healing. Once you learn to listen to yourself, it will be a tool that you will forever have with you. You’ll be able to connect with what your body tells you and act upon it. It’s not always an easy process, but I walked that path with some amazing guidance, and I would love to now walk it with you.